Even When I'm Gone (Stay With Me)
Ollie.
Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don't even know myself anymore. For seven months I've been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame.
Mia.
Seven months ago, Ollie surrendered to the darkness, abandoning me in the process. He stripped me of my walls only to leave me defenseless. Now he's back, along with fresh new faces and obstacles standing in our way. He says trust no one. Not even him. How am I supposed to be strong for us both when I'm losing my grip?
"Just stay with me, Mia."
"Even when you're gone?"
"Especially when I'm gone."
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I’m still emotionally processing, Y’all. Definitely a must read!! ๐ญ๐ฅ๐คฏ๐ญ๐ฅฐ
I’m so beyond words right now you guys. My heart, my head. My feels all around are a jumbled mess. I knew going in I was in trouble, But what I didn’t think, what I couldn’t have anticipated was how much more I was going to become invested in this series, in these characters, in their lives. I legit felt like I was at Dolar. I was in these scenes with them, almost like I’m one of them. Me...The character with no name, but she’s there in the background, in a room, in the cafeteria. Okay, but seriously!! Like that’s how good the writing is here, y’all. I felt every cut, hit, bruise and heartache, and devastating loss. Like in my heart!! ♥️ “The cruel irony is you are my forever but not my right now.”—Oliver Masters I really don’t want to give anything about this book away, it really would be a disservice to Nicole’s hard work, so I will just say… buckle up! Ollie and Mia’s journey is a bumpy ride. It’s full of twists, and turns and unexpected hills and dips. It’s far from over. This is only the second of three books. And I feel though we aren’t anywhere near the surface yet we are starting to see some light. If that make sense?!? There are secrets and lies and I can’t imagine what’s going to happen to them when some of these things come out. This book was crazy in that characters we loved in the first book absolutely shocked the doodle out of us this go round. Like total 180’s y’all. I was like who are you?!?! That’s how shocked you will be. Like mind blown kinda shock! (It was awesome) One thing I LOVE,LOVE,LOVE is this author is giving us so many glimpses of different types of mental illnesses in the different characters personalities. Mental illness doesn’t fit in a box, and I love that she is opening up awareness to that. She has crafted this amazing story that’s allowing her to bring much needed awareness to some real world issues while also telling and spectacular story. But she’s doing it so well as not to pull us into a pit of dispair by the sad things that do happen in the book, and yes there are some sad things. But the way it’s written, is to remind us and get us thinking. That’s the mark of her talent y’all! I look forward to not only this third book, but what she does in the future with other books. I especially can’t wait for the rest of My Ollie and my Mia. Now I’m not exactly sure what’s just over the horizon for my loves, but because I believe they are inevitable and beautiful and perfectly made for each other I have faith that my HEA is coming in this next book and will be worthy of the journey it took to get there! *I voluntarily reviewed an advanced complimentary copy of this book! My cr8zysockbookblock blog wrap up for this book! ⭐⭐️⭐⭐⭐- This book is like putting your heart and head in a blender. It leaves you a jumble of a hot mess, and you knew it would going in and willingly did it anyways. AND I WOULD DO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN! I’m in awe of Nicole Fiorina!! Ready for #3 now! ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ-ANY time Ollie and Mia are near each other sparks could literally ignite the building. They are made for each other. It’s hot, and smokin sweet totally #PERFECTION ๐ช๐ชCliffhanger Warning- CLIFFHANGER. THIS IS BOOK OF A 3 BOOK SERIES ๐ซ Trigger Warning- This book definitely has some subjects that are sensitive to some readers and could be considered triggers. Since I won’t post spoilers and this is a book that deals with mental illness, if you would like anymore information about possible triggers or sensitive issues, feel free to PM me.
"I'm stuck between I'll never be enough and no one else will ever love you more."
"๐๐๐ ๐๐ง๐ช๐๐ก ๐๐ง๐ค๐ฃ๐ฎ ๐๐จ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ค๐ง๐๐ซ๐๐ง ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ." This book.... it is so utterly breathtaking. I cannot get over Nicole's writing and how much emotion is pouring through each page. This series is so different from other books of this genre and I just can't get enough of it. My heart skipped beats multiple times throughout this book and I was constantly fighting back tears. My eyes stayed glued to every word, a lump stuck in my through, and my heart pounding while I envisioned the turmoil that Mia and Ollie were going though. "๐๐๐๐ฉ'๐จ ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ช๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐๐ข๐ค๐ง๐ฎ ๐ค๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐ง๐๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฉ๐ค๐ค๐ ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ง๐ค๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐ค๐ ๐ข๐." Mia and Ollie are everything. Their connection, their passion, their basic need for each other is felt throughout this entire book. Each of them is such a strong character in their own way. They have both been through hell and found ways to cope on their own but are so much stronger and better with each other. They breathe life into one another. "๐๐ค๐ช'๐ง๐ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฉ ๐๐ง๐ค๐ ๐๐ฃ, ๐ค๐ฃ๐ก๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ." This series became one of my favorites within the first chapter of Stay With Me and is only digging itself deeper under my skin with every continuing word. I have more highlights/saved quotes from these books than any other and that was just after the first read, I always add more with every re-read. I'll just have to keep reading SWM and EWIG over and over again until book 3 gets released. "๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช'๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฎ๐๐๐ค, ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ ๐'๐ก๐ก ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ๐จ๐๐ฃ๐."
A love that's endless, pure and all consuming.... with a hint of madness
" Utterly stripped, unarmed, and exposed, the unity of us was a beautiful thing, and there was only one word to describe it. Poetic." With the ending of Stay with Me stripping me, I was soooo afraid to start Even When I'm Gone. But Nicole managed to take my mangled body and glue each piece back together like a shredded paper. Ollie and Mia are the kind of love we read about when we were falling in love with romance reading Nicholas Sparks. The are endless... pure and all consuming. With a whole lot of chaos and madness. Ollie has lost himself to the medication that numbs him and takes away all those feelings that he feels "too deeply". Mia will fight for their love. Ollie once made her break down her walls and feel... now its her turn. Even it take a year. Even if she watches him cave into himself. She will stay. Even when I'm gone isn't just a love story. With a bit of mystery and drama this is a well rounded book from start to finish. When you fall in love and can't move on... don't say I didn't warn you. What I loved: ❤️the love that envelopes and steals every ounce of your being ๐ฅthe boy with the tattoos, big heart, roaming hands, and poetic words ๐ trauma that felt understood and brought awareness ๐งwho dun it... and no I never guess correctly ๐คhealing... raw and emotional TW: medicated, suicide, rape, abusive situations, child abuse, mental health, sexual situations, death Rating: story-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️๐ซ/5 characters-⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5 genre- dark romance steam- Nicole knows how to write the perfect lover song: Fine Line by Harry Styles
Heartbreakingly Wonderful
‘Even When I’m Gone’ kicks us right back into the epic stories of Ollie and Mia. For seven months the two have been separated, Mia having no idea where Ollie is. When Ollie makes his return to Dolor, it’s not the heartwarming reunion that is hoped for. There are things happening that are working to keep Mia and Ollie apart. At the end of the day, they both know they love each other, but is their love enough? This book was gut-wrenching. This one is one that consumed me while I was reading it. Just when I thought I knew what would happen next, Nicole would throw me for a loop. I don’t think I have enough of the right words to describe this book. Parts had my in tears, parts of it had me smiling so wide my face hurt, parts had me wanting to scream. Every. Single. Emotion. That is what this book evoked in me while reading. It was the best though, honestly, this book was beyond perfection. The parts of life that many don’t think about, are the parts that Nicole is diving into head first in her books. I thought ‘Stay With Me’ was epic but holy smokes, ‘Even When I’m Gone’ is even more so. This is a must read, and a top read of 2019 for me.
Let the Amazon was continue by Nicole Fiorina!! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
The Emotion this book evokes from you, the characters - all the situations and words said - this book is SO AMAZING!! I’m mind blown, in awe, anger and love with Nicole Fiorina (I’ve already told her this btw!). This emotional, gut wrenching book is definitely one TOP 10 read of 2019!! This twisted, mental and emotional romance is so different and truly is a tale of emotionally-twisted lovers that never should bee, but are so PERFECT together. Hands down - YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!!! It will ruin most of the other books you’ve read this year!! I flipped the pages of this book so fast - I got nothing else accomplished. It was an obsession I couldn’t stop thinking about and had to have no matter the consequences. Her words captivated me and when the ending came - the way I felt was overwhelming. I NEED MORE ALREADY!!! I had to take about 4 hours to write this review. I was heartbroken, emotional, overwhelmed - you name it, I felt it. Her books gave me insight into these forbidden, unheard of parts of life. She throws this chaotic, psychotic, overwhelming, unemotional tale and BLOWS YOUR MIND!! I can honestly say I’ve never read a romance like this ever before. She broaches topics that are considered forbidden, but takes them and writes an unbelievable romance that will shake you to your core!!! When starting with Stay With Me, I fell hard for Ollie and Mia. The ending slayed me. This book takes that book, leaves off where it the previous book left off, and takes you on a rollercoaster of emotions and feelings that you don’t want - but can’t help but feel. I experimented such awe between the characters. The support, love, uncontrollable emotions (literally!), and everything that encompasses Ollie and Mia. Ollie and Mia’s dialogue are so perfect and will give you the willpower to continue on. Their words hit you deep and soak into your soul. Ollie and Mia. Emotionally-crossed lovers that find each other, but everything has a tendency to get in the way of them. Medication - people - situations: you name it, it has happened. Their story is one that has you literally holding on for dear life!! I have NO WORDS to describe what happens without ruining the whole story for you. In this book, you learn some insights into the past, gaining perspective into WHY Ollie and Mia are the way they are. So many influences are at play in this book. Hold on tight - it’s a bumpy, sensual, overwhelming tale you won’t get over quickly!! (Warning: Book 3, I’m assured, is coming as quickly as she can!! This ends on a cliffhanger!!) So do I recommend this book - HIGHLY!! Stars: 10+ stars
“Fall apart so we can fall in place, together,”
Nicole Fiorina is a talent. Plain and simple, this woman has a way of weaving words that will flood you with so many emotions and feelings, that you will feel as if you need to seek a therapy session, ASAP. It’s wild to me that the writing and the flow of this story will make you feel as if you’re in the throes of mental illness. Anxiety inducing is a better way to put it maybe? It’s like I’m empathizing with the characters POV that I’m reading. Like I can feel their stress, love, sadness, and happiness bleeding from the pages. It’s crazy that one persons words can give me that much feeling. The rollercoaster of Mia & Ollie’s love is long and twisty, but so far worth the ride. The intricacies and complexities of the people and life they live in general at Dolor is just, psycho, and that’s putting it mildly. I honestly can’t say much more about this story without spoiling things. So what I will say is that this is part 2 in the 3 part story of Ollie & Mia. There is love. There is loss. There is violence. There is happiness. There is sadness. There is vengeance. There is mystery. There is suspense. There’s a little bit of everything this session at Dolor, and better yet there’s more to come.
Mind Blown
I don’t know if anything has affected me the way that Nicole Fiorina has with Even When I’m Gone. I am still trying to process all of my emotions. Aside from that ending, which I refuse to believe is the end, this book was perfect! Nicole Fiorina does such an amazing job of writing about these very real mental health issues. She is sensitive and real. I applaud her for writing such an intense story and doing it so well. I am absolutely blown away by this story! I can’t figure out which way I should take that ending, but I am really, REALLY hoping that actually wasn’t the end. Please let there be another book!! Even if it’s from Jake’s & Liam’s perspective, as long as we get some Ollie and Mia in there! If I could give more than 5 stars, this would get them! I loved Stay With Me - it’s in my top 5 read of 2019. But I think Even When I’m Gone just topped that. For the second book in a series to top the first one, to me, says something. The writing in this book was phenomenal and touched me on a level very few, if any, have touched me. I honestly cannot recommend this series enough.
GET THIS BOOK NOW!!
This book! I don't even know how to review this! This is definitely one of, if not the top series I've read this year! Nicole Fiorina is such an amazing writer. I seriously can't believe these books are her debut novels. What incredible talent! This book takes you on a totally emotional ride. This book tore me up & had my anxiety through the roof. I have a MAJOR book hangover and having serious trouble waiting for the next book. It has so many elements and layers to it. ✔ Angst ✔ Tragedy ✔ Suspense ✔ Thriller ✔ Romance I can't do this book justice. It has so many twist and turns that just keep you glued to the book to find out what happens next! I absolutely could not put it down. GO GET THIS BOOK, RUN AND ONE CLICK THIS SERIES. There may be triggers for some in this book.
Awesome
Thank you Nicole for my ARC!!!! I also bought this book.. that is how much I love this series!!! I really don't know how to put what I'm feeling into words. This is the second book in a three book series and they only get better! There were parts of this book that were really hard to read. I didn't like Ollie at the beginning ( and it's really hard not to like him because he is awesome) but that was because we were seeing another side to him! Mia bless her heart, she is so damn strong to have gone through all she did. The twist and turns in this book had me screaming at my kindle. The ending WTH!!!!!!!!!!!! Nicole's ability to write so good makes you feel like you are there and to bring so many emotions out of you. I can't wait for the next book and I'm praying there will be some HEA!!! Nicole you wrecked my feelings with this book!!! Great job!!!!
FIVE POETIC STARS!
FIVE POETIC STARS! ☆☆☆☆☆ "There's a thin line between a win and a loss, the line being how you respond to it." -Oliver Masters I can't. I'm speechless. I went through every emotion possible while reading Even When I'm Gone. The FEELS! Nicole Fiorina's poetic and beautiful writing will make you feel each word captivating you, and making it impossible to put it down. What a page turner! Be ready for a sleepless night, and make sure you have a stress ball, tissues, and your heart ready for this roller coaster of unapologetic writing to crush your soul. "The only way to cheat death is by creating a love that will live forever." -Oliver Masters Ollie, you can love me insane! *Swoon Mia, damn girl. You are badass. Ethan, *wink. Hey, boy hey! Zeke, I will never forget February 29th. You love unconditionally. "There might be a storm inside my head, but never get between me and my heart. That is a battle you will lose every time." -Oliver Masters A MUST READ!
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